Today was hard for me. I was questioned about my integrity and my work ethic, something that hasn't happened more than one other time in my career as a stylist. And I was told that maybe, just maybe, I would ultimately be replaced by in-house staff.
Certainly, this did not come as a complete surprise. My bread and butter client of nearly 12 years had grown so immensely in the past few years. And, it would only make sense financially at some point to make the switch. But, I hope they understand, (and more than likely, they do) that part of that growth was due to the work that I put into the styling through 3 photographers, now the 4th.
It's funny how we take ownership over our work. It's important to me but, ultimately does not belong to any one. The studio I entered will not be the same as the one I will leave. Standards were set. My standards. And they were very efficient, precise and high standards.
The hardest thing to leave behind is the fact that I had finally hit a stride and felt completely comfortable in my work there. Completely. I had finally struck a balance between work life and home life; Blissful at both.
I know this impending news, this push to the middle of my back will lead me to the next open door. But, give me just a moment. Today was hard for me because, nothing lasts forever.